When I was a little girl, I had an imaginary husband (named John) and we had 5 imaginary kids. I have no idea why I had so many imaginary children, but hey, I was a 4-year-old! However, somewhere between my early youth and adulthood I changed my tune. If you had asked me 5 years ago whether I wanted kids, the answer would have been a resounding, "Not now! Maybe not ever, so don't bug me!"
I don't know what made me decide it was time... Perhaps it was my biological clock, or my aging parents and in-laws, or Lord knows what else! Now, here I am, 27 weeks pregnant (as of April 24th), and I'm still a little freaked out about becoming "Mommy" in a few short months. I love kids, don't get me wrong, but I don't consider myself the maternal type. And unlike most of my friends, the thought of myself in the role of Mom never factored into my dreams of the future.
I partially blame this ambivalence toward parenthood on the fact that I am an only-child. I never really HAD to grow up! Then, consider the fact that my husband is also (technically) an only-child. We're lucky we decided to get pregnant at all! Having a kid means that we can't just take care of ourselves alone. We must now switch our focus to our new little family member, and curb some of our selfish Peter-Pan tendencies. No easy task for someone who at-heart still feels like she's 15!
So, I'd like to think that there's at least some room for me to be a good parent and still be a big kid. Please tell me there is, because obviously there's no turning back now. :)
There is room for both! In my humble opinion, the best parents are those that know how to be a kid. My little guy is almost 2 years old and I still have moments when I can't believe that I am his MOTHER!! You'll do great!
ReplyDeleteJodi
Vanessa, you guys are going to make awesome parents. You're both great people, you both have cool families, and you both know how to love - that's what it takes.
ReplyDelete-Tim
Aw! Thanks Tim!! It's definitely a little unnerving when you have no idea what it's like on the other side of parenthood. I'm sure you can relate. :) We're just looking forward to all the fun we're going to have with him when he arrives.
ReplyDeleteLove the whole "John and 5 kids thing". :)
ReplyDeleteAnd, psst that is the most adorable preggers photo!!
You guys will be great parents. I think the world would be a better place if more kids had parents who knew how to have fun.
Sprout's a lucky little dude!
The best of luck to you!! No way anyone is ever "ready" to be a parent. I wasn't prepared to see that stick turn positive, but by the time I got to the end of the pregnancy, I was *totally* ready. Or at least, I thought I was. Definitely wasn't. So, take every day as it comes, and enjoy each moment, because they go by so fast! Even if you/baby have a bad day, know the stage that's giving you a tough time will not last forever.
ReplyDeleteLOVE the photo BTW. Awesome.